After a long time of feeling nothing..just an empy space, would you take a chance to feel alive? to feel that rush, to feel a fuckton of feelings, happy, angry, sad, in love, hateful, etc…I mean to feel so angry you are over it and then at the next second something happens that makes it all absolutely worth it? Because I’ve tried to let go and move on but all I feel is just a void…nothing, no emotions, not anything; and at the end of the day I start missing feeling those things and go back to the same vicious circle, where at the end I’m happy but I’m so miserable at the same fucking time and I came to the conclusion that I can’t let go of that. I’m a very lonely person, I never needed anyone in my life for support, not even my family, but with this particular person..I just need him, but no, not him, IT…it’s what represents, I don’t think I fell in love for someone, I fell in love with the idea of it and what it represents, I fell in love with feeling alive, of how I feel, not a person, and that’s what scares me…maybe I’m with someone for the wrong reasons and then at the end of the day it will all turn shit. Idk if anyone here gets me, I hope someone does though.